The Gate

It rains hard
Rain is wet
And I love the coolness
It speads upon my head
In my right
I have a match
In my left
I have the box
Light is how
It rains today
It pours down only now
I saunter to the gate
A gate
full of memories
I brush the past
And look into the new
Overhead
Thnder booming
Lightning flashing
It's raining harder now
My mind is made
I strike the match
Toss it onto the gate
With luck it shall burn
I pause infront
I watch the match
It is growing
Slightly bigger
A bolt of light
Flashes before me
I make a sneer
At the gate
The gate
So many memories
My past
My life
I hated it all
Why didn't it go?
The pain to great
I burn the gate
Burn it down
In the light rain
More thunder
More lightining
In the flashes
I gasp
I see the faces
long forgotten

Memories so dark
Memoires to cruel
I was beaten
Unloved
I was taken from my home
My first home
And I was left with
All these other children
Adults
They came by
and by and by
Taking children away
I remember one day
I was taken too
A smiling couple
Who were they?
I remember the gate
These people took me here
I don't know them
But I remember them
They never beat me
They never hated me
I made mistakes
They brushed those away
I was happy
For the very first time
Then one day
I was back
Back in the home
All these children too
I was shocked
Why had the couple
Betrayed me?
They hurt me
My heart
Do they care about me?
Did they ever?

I broke out of that place
5 years ago today
I hated the couple
They hurt me

I lit the match
Threw it
The gate burned
It was still burning
I can see their faces
They taught me right and wrong
fed me
Loved me
My life was easy then
Not I am hated
Everybody hates me
I hate them back
I suddenly remembered
A car
Big with lights
Came by one day
I was sleeping
I head a loud screeching
I walked out of the room
I saw men
They were big
Tough and scary
I scuttled away
But one took me
"Poor girl," he said
Poor?
I had family
I was rich in that
He took me outside
And I saw the couple
They didn't moving
They were sleeping
But why sleep
On the grass
When they have
A big comfy bed?
They wore masks.
Halloween already?
"Halloween?" I asked
Nobody heard me
I assumed it was
They had red facepaint
They looked like clowns
I want to be one too!
The man took me back home
the one with the children
And there I sat
And waited
The couple
They didn't come back
Why?
I waited
One day
I over heard the man
Who took me here
"I'm sorry for the kid"
Sorry?
He didn't do
Anything to me
Why was he sorry?
I sat in a corner
He handed me a paper
"They left it for you"
I couldn't read
I spent days looking at it
I didn't ask nobody
They couldn't read either
Or so I thought
Scribbly things all over
Big, red dot on the bottom
It reminded me of my favorite ball
They played with me always
I can remember
How to recite the letter
I overheard the man say it
I didn't know what it meant
And it said:

Emily Dear
Something has happened
Jessica and I are dying
Do you know what dying means?
We will leave this place
We will be sleeping forever
We don't want to leave but
God has plans for us
up in Heavan
We promise one day we'll meet again
Love Brad and Jessica

Dying.
Isn't that a shirt?
The one with all the pretty colors?
The one I wore when they first took me?
Why did they color themselves?
To look like they are sleeping?
I know about God
We pray to him every bedtime.
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake
I pray the Lord my soul to take
Amen.
The couple was with God?
Did they forget about me?
I was furious
I am furious
I was 6 years old
And had a happy life
And then this happened
And I wasn't happy
I looked at the gate
The flames were spreading
All over the fence
And touched the house
It slid up the side
Reached the tree above
The tree was damp
But still caught fire
My heart
It stopped
I remembered the letter.
The dot.
It was the same color
As the red paint!
No
It was blood
What was I doing?
I gaze at the flame
Now nothing can stop it
Not even the rain
It is on the tree
I hear creaking
A loud boom
The tree branch
Smashed into the house
Knocking over my childhood
Smashing my memories
"NO!!!"
I want it to rain harder
I finally understood
How naive couls I be?
I am such an idiot.
Somebody killed Brad
Shot Jessica too
They wrote these words
In their finaly breath
They died
They are in heaven
I understand
They loved me still
I remember the fire
I run to the house
I take my coat off
Smash the flames
"Help!" I shout
Nobody hears me
I am ignored
11 and shunned
No, not 11
I am 12
Today is my birthday
My 12th birthday
I smash the flames
I call for help
The house if burning
The tree is crying
I hear another crack
My eyes widen
I look up at the tree
It's branch gives in

I open my eyes
Everything is blurry
I wipe my eyes and
I look around
I see myself
On the ground
I am under the tree
But how?
I am here
But I feel no pain
I look around
It's all truning white
I am frightened
I don't seen rain
I only see a gate
This one is gold
Heaven
I have died
Why am I here?
I don't deserve it
I walk to the gates
St. Peters
I've heard about him
Jessica told me
He waits at the gates
Waits for you
Takes out a book
Decides if you can go in
At the gates I see my past
Jessica and Brad
They are waiting for me
I cry in joy and run
I run to them
We hug
"Happy Birthday Emily"
They haven't forgotten
We walk up to St. Peter
Holding hands like a family
Together we ask
He scans his book
"Emily, you have done wrong
And for that you may be denied
Bur you corrected your wrongs
And died fixing them"
With a final breath
Our hearts racing
St. Peters says
"You may pass"
And I smile
I was an idiot to do wrong
And burn down my house
Did anybody find me?
It doesn't matter
My soul is free
I am the happiest girl in the world
And this is my birthday gift