My Story

It's like jumping rope until I mess up and stop
Feeling my heart just drop
Bitch, whore, slut, hoe
Feeling nothing but no one really cares to know
The words bring tears to my eyes
Causing me to live everything as a lie
Putting depression and burden on me
A smile that you no longer see
My life is hell as is
Blaming shit on me and seeing how much pain it causes
Ruining a relationship, finding out my sweet boyfriend was bi
I'd prefer not to have the truth and rather to have a lie
Some tell me I can handle a lot of stuff
Well I'm about to snap because I've had enough
Please help I have so many things on my mind
The right words I can't seem to find
I seem to screw up everything
Never knowing what tomorrow just may bring
I cut myself from time to time
Nothing deep to leave a scar but enough to commit a crime
People act surprised when they see but really it's nothing new
If they think that's bad then really they have no clue
My life has its ups and downs
Along with plenty of smiles and plenty of frowns
Making new friends and seeming to lose old
Getting harder and harder for me to stand there bold
Jumping rope ... messing up then starting again
When will all this chaos end??